2.06.2008

Apology.....

I've just been sitting here in front of my screen today trying to decide what to post. My mind is rumbling and my heart is driving the rumble so, here goes.

I pre apologize for the "yuck" factor in this post and I promise, this will be the last.
Guess part of me is still in a state of shock.

Today I sign those divorce papers. Yup. I give him his freedom today. Let me rephrase that, I give "them" their freedom today. So, would you both, just please, STOP, sending me your cell phone photos of your sexual escapades! Gross.....

I think what baffles me the most is that you can spend years with someone and wake up one day and POOF, it is like everything has been erased off the board. I (we) never exsisted. A small part of his family just "loves" his new girlfriend and even welcomes her into the church that WE joined as a family. The children and I have found a new church home so that part is fine. But.....still......yuck!

He has been living with his new girlfriend, whom he met while in a drug rehab facility, next door to me, since mid January. Yeah, imagine looking out your window and seeing your husband and his new girlfriend crusing around photographing your every move. And my mother-in-law, and sister-in-law, photographing my tears.
Great family........lemme' tell you!

I am doing the right thing for myself. For little people who do not understand this crap. For my parents who deserve a little "peace", especially considering my Mother is recovering from not only brain surgery but also the loss of her Father. Yeah, like, where were the same vultures while my family struggled through all that? Up the new chicks ass I guess.

So yes, today is the day, I give you back all the freedom you (the irrelevant portion of you....) Crenshaw's need, to continue as you incubate and manifest your mental and hateful sickness.

I wish you all.........everything you condone and live for.

Over and out.

Oh,

And Alison, Nicole, or whoever you are TODAY....
I just hope you realize you are the next one in line for this same shit.
{{{{And the line is lengthy, doll}}}}
Mark this post, darling.
You'll be blogging it on your MySpace
and Adult Friend-Finder page
within a few (months) years.
But, glad to see you are back within your element.
Your reputaiton preceeds you!

And honey, the next time everyone in your delightful family forsakes you and you show up at my home, banging on the windows, crying and threatening to kill yourself.....
Not to worry.
I will personally put you out of your "methed-out" misery.
Got that?

Have a great day, knowing you will soon be free of us.

And for my precious readers, I apologize that you had to read this,
if you even could.
It is gross
But
It is over

Today.

Gotta' run....
Time to sign!
:)

22 comments:

74WIXYgrad said...

Suzanne: I never really knew the pain you were going through even though I, as well as many others on the web, hurt for you. Many times during this I went to the Lord, who knew exactly what you were going through. Your parents are also in my prayers.

Your post was a lot of hurt coming out, and I saw nothing wrong in that. We all understand.

There is some fixing that needs to be done on both sides and as a Christian, I need to pray for both sides of this. I will also be lifting your children up in prayer.

Take it easy the next few days.

Amias said...

Nothing wrong with this post.

We love you Suzanne -- and we are in your corner. I wish nothing but love and peace for you and your beloved family.

Kathy said...

I am so sorry about what you are having to go through. I cannot even imagine how hard it must be. I recently did a post about divorce because it hurts me when people I care about are being hurt by it. I pray that you will feel the love of God surrounding you today!

Frasypoo said...

Hi Liquid
I truly believe that what goes around comes around and whatever wrong was meted out to you will go back.
You are a child of the Living God and he will take care of you.He knows what you need and when you need it.
My husband' s ex-wife left him for another man twice(he re-married her after the first time)but he never understood why it had to happen to him but after 12 years he met me and I can say we may have lived worlds apart but God brought us together and we were meant to be.
But we dont know what Gods plan is but it is the best one for us
And dear Suzanne you will see his blessings in your life.

Anonymous said...

Suzanne: You are absolutely right. All you have to do now is just sit back and wait with a smile on your face ‘cause “Doll” (whatever your name is), history WILL repeat itself . . . . . you can break that up in your pipe and smoke it!

~ Anonymous

Mari said...

i say, no need to apologise to your readers. you did the right thing. and don't look back.

:)

Panaderos said...

No need to apologize, Suzanne. We understand. Let all the hurt come out so that the healing could begin.

Take very good care of yourself, dear friend.

Liquid said...

OK........
My blog has offically been flagged.
I am not worried, it will resolve, but thank you to those of you who let me know.

Much~
Me

kasper794 said...

I agree with everyone else no to apologize. You have to get the pain out somehow and all of us support you no matter what. You are in my prayers.

~gkw said...

I wish that I could smack him once myself for being that way!!! Hey, I wouldn't mind giving her one either but I figure it's HIS fault. Vows are suppose to MEAN something!

74WIXYgrad said...

As far as flagging is concerned, I don't know the penalty, but you are always free to guest post at my blog if you need to.

Liquid said...

Problem is now, resolved, commentarily speaking.

Thank you each, so much for your support.

I keep thinking I'll wake up and it will all just be a bad dream.

Not going to happen though.......
Even bad dreams seem reason enough to me to take the same action.

Love ya'll!

Much!

Amias said...

Flagging is a joke, Liquid. It simply means that someone don't like what you post, however unless it vulgar it will not be touched. And if it was vulgar, all you have to do is change your blog to adult status.

Some folks are so naive --- and the ones you are dealing with are little children, with enhanced emotions.

Write what you please, this is a free country, and this is why Blogging was created. Darn! They are about to make me curse!

Hale McKay said...

Liquid,

Crimson and Clover playing in the background. Great song by a great group. I have every album, every single Tommy James and he Shondelles ever recorded.

Enough of the nostalgia. You did the right thing to air out your feelings and I admire that, because it's not always easy to do.

Good luck to you and may God bless.

(Perhaps someone can slip them some model airplane glue!)

Bella said...

Suzanne, I'm so sorry you are having to go through such a mess. Life can be so unfair at times. Blogging is such a stress reliever to me and don't ever apologize for what you post. This is your blog and we all love you!

Just hold on tight and BREATHE.

What goes around, comes around.

Bella

Erin said...

Awww, man, that sounds rough - BUT - at the same time I'm betting that was very freeing for you at the same time.

Divorce is never easy - and never fun (I'm going through one myself) but rest assured you are going to move on with your life and be way better without him then you were with him.

You can do it girl - way to go for getting rid of such a bastard and moving on with your life!!

rdl said...

{{{Suzanne}}}}}
Post on dahling!! cause it sounds like it s--ks big time for you now. so let it all out we don't mind.
I'm in my own private idaho(hell) right now too (but nothing like you are experiencing) but i do feel your pain. it's very hard to see the light at the....... but
this too will pass.... you deserve Way better.
Best,
your friend
rdl

rdl said...

oh and my word verification was seacolm. almost seacalm. since i didn't get to dip by toes in the sand in Orlando(No beach!!) might take myself down tomy beach-too cold for the toes but need to breathe in some salt air. wish you were here, you could go with me.
Love the music.
Keep on keepin on dear girl!!

LL said...

As horrible as everything has been, consider today your Liberation Day. You are no longer emotionally, financially, or physically responsible for a man who sounds like he deserves all the bad things that have come and will come to him. You should have a Liberation Day party and celebrate it every year. For YOURSELF. Don't worry about any of those others....worry about you and your child(ren) (don't know how many you have) and be LIBERATED.

Hugs to you, sugar. Didn't know you were going through all of this.

Maggie said...

Suzanne,
I have a niece whose husband claims to be a preacher and preaches in their local family church.
My niece`s sister was at a drive-in window and was shocked to see Her sister`s husband, (David) in the car in front of her and he was being lovey dovey with another woman.
When my niece confronted her husband...he denied it at first and she hired a private investigator who showed that not only was he cheating...he was taking the woman to the same vacation spots which he went to with his wife.
David`s mother stood in the church and stated she did not believe her son did any wrong and he was allowed to still preach at that church...my niece left the church and is now attending another.
The divorce is final and...the woman David was cheating with has left him and is going with another now.
Yes! it is true...Sometimes, what goes around will come around.

I do wish you well.

Warren said...

don't apologize Suzanne

my heart breaks with you

Choc Mint Girl said...

Though this might sound cliché, but I really do understand, Suzanne. It doesn't need someone to experience what you have gone through, but, by just reading this post can really make my heart feels the pain for you.